I am not really sure where or when Dumb, Stupid, and Ugly became part of my life, but at some point that insidious trio took up residence inside me. And the older I got, the stronger their influence over my life and my self-image became. I remember being fairly happy as a child, but somehow I always felt different or weird as my family and I moved from place to place. Gradually, I became Dumb, Stupid, and Ugly.
I am absolutely sure, however, where and when God became part of my life. I became a Christian at the age of 8, and my relationship with Christ has never wavered over the years. Even though I have had ups and downs along the journey, I have never, ever doubted my salvation experience.
Dumb, Stupid, and Ugly wanted to destroy me, but God wanted to give me abundant life. My question, then, is this: “How did God and His Spirit live within me all those years while, at the same time, that menacing trio was also living inside me?”
As I reflected and pondered that question, I came to the conclusion that, if God’s presence had not been with me, Dumb, Stupid, and Ugly would have totally destroyed my life long ago. There were many times that I contemplated hurting myself or just ending my life altogether, but I never acted on the impulse. I believe with my whole heart that God’s presence protected me and stopped me from acting out their sinister thoughts and desires for my life.
Have you ever felt that way? What “personas” in your life taunt and mock you? That trio still tries to influence my life today but now that I am aware of their existence and plan for my life I ask God again and again to protect me from their lies. He will help you too!
Blessings – Lisa