Pain, what does a person need to do with deep emotional pain? The pain in my life needed to be dealt with or I was going to sink into a pit that I would never be able to climb out of. I realized that I could not get better by myself. Counseling was my first action and then I had to find some friends to share my story with. But, at the same time, I did not want anybody to know what was going on in my life. Oh, how difficult that was! I did not want to feel the pain and horror of my past. I still did not want to think about it. The pain had become some kind of horrible monster that I felt would defeat me.
But then I had to rest in the truth, and the truth is this: “I am free from any condemning charges against me.” Pain, that monster, cannot condemn or harm me ever again. Romans 8:31 says it this way: “If God is for us, who can be against us?” (NIV)
During this time, I started reading L.M. Montgomery’s Anne of Green Gables novels, and in Anne’s House of Dreams God showed me a great truth.
Taking it all out seems to have done away with it, somehow. It’s very strange – and I thought it so real and bitter. It’s like opening the door of a dark room to show some hideous creature you’ve believed to be there – and when the light streams in your monster turns out to have been just a shadow, vanishing when the light comes. It will never be between us again.
Oh, how that spoke to me. That pain, that monster that I had feared for years and years and stuffed away inside me became just a shadow when God’s Light shone forth to conquer it for all time.
My friend, you, too, can have that peace of mind. If you are experiencing pain in your heart as I did, let God’s Light and Truth shine in your heart and turn that monster of pain into nothing but a shadow. Maybe someday we could meet somewhere and be able to say, “Our pain will never be between us again.”
Blessings – Lisa